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This is about me page, so I will talk about me, maybe.

I am James, as you know.

Disappointed that I am living as James..

Only if I had a chance, I want to be someone else.

No matter how much I desire for it.

Only the empty echo would come back for my scream.

Tired and hopeless, still there's thousands of miles for me to go on.

Knowledge is what I stored in my mind.

Not enough, that's why I try to learn.

Of course, I encountered many obstacle.

Worth enough for me to conquer it an go on I guess.

Whenever I meet a person, what I give is just a sincere, but fake smile.

However, it is pretty useful in front of those ignorant people.

Although at the end they might notice it and hate me.

That is just something that I do not really care.

I do have someone that I love, of course.

Still, when I say that I love her, she might think it is fake, as I give my smile to others.

Loser, they might call me.

Offended, but having nothing to fight back, that is also me.

Viciously, they would start scold me, like I am someone who doesn't have feeling.

Endlessly, they would try to make me feel bad because they think I can't feel anything.

Anger is always stored inside me.

Never shown, so it is always sleep deep inside my heart.

Yet I am the one who is afraid of it to burst out.

More or less, the mask has some fraw on it, since it is on my face for too long.

On the other hand, I should not be the one who is scared of my anger.

Rest of the people should, since they will be the one who bearing my anger.

Elsewise, maybe I will just end myself, if I burst.

So yeah, I am james, a man who is betrayed time after time, and still trying to trust people.

So funny, I never learn, sigh~.

Well

it's ok, I am out of trust, just now.