I don't know if this is a good place to make this topic...
So my mom and dad bought a laptop for my older brother... I didn't care, wasn't jealous.... then after a few days my mom called and told me that they also bought a laptop for me(they're abroad btw), I was surprised because my grades are bad... well not really bad but unsatisfying.... then I thought... maybe they bought a laptop for me to become more serious about school... then right after the call ended, I went to my room like nothing good happened... and the next day I woke up and started shouting YES YES! in my mind.... and 3 days after... she called again to tell us that she has sent the laptop to us and that it would arrive around may 9-10... and now I received a letter from them... telling me to advance study once I got the books.... and that studying is the only way to help us.... and also our house isn't fully paid yet... what are we going to do if your father lost a job?... and then I realized that I'm a burden to them.... I mean.. they have done so many things for me and yet I don't even show them or tell them thanks... I am happy that they bought me a laptop but at the same time I feel like... "O ayan, binilhan ka na namin ng laptop, sapat na ba yan para magseryoso ka sa pag-aaral?"(sorry if it's in tagalog..)...
/sigh /sob /sigh
IF only... /sigh if only i told them that it's okay if they don't buy me a laptop.... i wouldn't feel this kind of feeling...
hahaha, I want to cry but I can't... I don't even know why...
Sorry if there are plenty of mistakes, try to understand it :)
I just wanted to tell you what I'm feeling right now.... for some reason whenever I tell my problems to someone I feel.... ;)