Icarus Posted May 22, 2009 Author Report Posted May 22, 2009 The thing is,I'm not like my parents or family.She tried to teach me stuff and influence on me but nothing worked,I made my self what I am today by my own. I'm nothing like the rest of my family.
Kaboom Posted May 22, 2009 Report Posted May 22, 2009 Well that's a really hard topic, can't give you advice there. Hopefully she's accepting of it!!! and Tyler, I'm sorry :( I kinda agree with teacup, I can't really give advice, but I think I know what's going on here. She doesn't want you to leave to go to the army or anything, because she actually does love you, but she's trying to over come it by saying things like that.
Icarus Posted May 22, 2009 Author Report Posted May 22, 2009 I'm not either. But you're still a product of your environment. You could be the way you are because you don't want to be the way they are, you know? Idk. I'm just babbling now. I know exactly what you're trying to say <3 Shes one of those old kind of people who are patriotic,religious and really disciplined. And I'm a bisexual boy that doesn't believe in patriotism,religion and I'm kinda wild.
Terroryst Posted May 22, 2009 Report Posted May 22, 2009 I know exactly what you're trying to say <3 Shes one of those old kind of people who are patriotic,religious and really disciplined. And I'm a bisexual boy that doesn't believe in patriotism,religion and I'm kinda wild. Oh so you're like every other kid that try to be the different ones in their bloodline?
Icarus Posted May 22, 2009 Author Report Posted May 22, 2009 Oh so you're like every other kid that try to be the different ones in their bloodline? Kinda,I'm the only one left.
Terroryst Posted May 22, 2009 Report Posted May 22, 2009 You're an only child? Don't let those babies in your nuts go to waste then.
teacupx Posted May 22, 2009 Report Posted May 22, 2009 omg my stepmom used to give me such bad anxiety i hate her. MY LIFE STORY for anyone who is curious IT'S REALLY FUCKING LONG no one's gonna read it w/e I needed to let it out My stepmom raised me and she was such a nasty, snobby whore. It was honestly like Cindarella. I wasn't allowed to watch TV, go on playdates, listen to the radio in the car, etc. I had a strict homework regime. Always in bed on time. Horseback riding, Irish Dance, Ballet, Drama, etc. It was MISERABLE. She picked my outfits. No junk food. She was nasty too. Really judgemental and horrifying. She used to make me sit at the dinner table every night until I finished everything off my plate. She would watch me. On rare occasions she'd get another glass of wine and my dad would steal some or I'd give some to my dog. Sometimes I'd literally sit there for hours without being able to leave until I was done, if I ate in the living room they'd sit and watch a movie and I'd have to sit at the table staring at the food. and I always hated meat even when I was little, I'm a vegetarian now, and I swear she'd make it all of the time and undercook it to see me cringe. She'd make me eat the skin off of fishhh ewwww. and sometimes she would put a dessert in front of me to tease me!!! can you believe that. I remember when I was really little she'd give me baths and be really rough... like REALLY rough. I swear she liked to hurt me. and also I wasn't allowed to play around anyone. They had my playroom in the basement, it had a rug and some toys but barely any light and it was cold and there were centipedes down there and those things scare me. She'd also give me homework assignments and like 10 books to read so all summer I was either at some educational summer program or doing work. Every weekend she would make me pull weeds from our yard, it was HUGE, and the bugs used to scare me because I was like 7. I could never do anything right either, she would pinch me and tell me to do it better and I hated not being able to make her happy because I was a child and didn't realise how fucked up she was. My anxiety as a child was extremely high. I haven't felt anxiety like that ever since. My dad would always lie and say he had to go to the hardware store or something like that just so we could get away from her lol. My dad never stuck up for me because he has NO BALLS. Every night I'd pray that they would get divorced and they finally did when I was 12, it was honestly so freeing... she cheated on my dad with some Muslim guy and now they're married. I tried to forgive her for doing that to my dad and I would see her once a week for like 2 years but I really despised her at that point and just haven't talked to her since. It's been like four years and I don't miss her, sadly. She still tries to get me to talk to her and sends me Tiffany's necklaces but sorry bitch, I'm not materialistic like you and necklace's can't win me back. She did raise me and I give her so much credit but if you knew what my life was like you'd understand. But on the other hand the divorce sucked because I barely knew my dad beforehand so it was like living with a stranger. He had no idea how to raise a kid and was too involved with his own shit to care about me. Going from a completely scheduled life to no structure at all. I had to learn how to cook, do laundry, even just dress myself. I had to teach myself how to do everything overnight.... which was good I think. I learned. But what really sucked is that I have a lot of problems with my dad, stuff I don't really want to talk about, big trust issues based on things that happened when I was very very little. So I didn't feel comfortable. He's a womanizer. He's brought over hundreds of women, I swear. It really disgusts me but I try to tell myself that not all guys are like that xD Anyway, now that I'm older, he gives me money to keep me happy and I stay out of his life and he stays out of mine. It works out. I appreciate him for giving me such a good life material-wise, but emotionally he's never there. He doesn't give a shit. I remember I came home with a black eye and I told him that a guy punched me in the face and he told me to be careful because he paid a lot to have my teeth straightened with braces and he doesn't want them getting knocked out. YEP. I don't like him all too much but I think he tries. He's not a good father figure, he doesn't give me any guidance or protection but he could be SOOO much worse so My mom on the other hand has been through a lot of shit, she was very poor first coming here. We used to share a mattress in the projects with cockroaches everywhere and our Christmas presents were from local churches and all food was donated to us. But she worked so hard. She busted her ass. She used to go to work and I remember being very very little left at home alone because she couldnt afford someone to look after me and she was here all alone, my brother and sister were in school, and I would lie on the mattress and hug this one pink sweater because it smelled like her until she got home LOL how sad but she always got us everything we needed, she even saved up and got us a computer that was really expensive at the time because they were pretty new, idk. she did everything she could for us. I swear her heart is completely pure... she's a saint to me. I can tell her anything, she never judges her kids, always there for anything we need, would give the clothing off of her back.. people say that about their parents but you haven't met my mom. I'm just really grateful for every day I have her in my life and I'm so happy that she's healthy again and has her life together ^.^ My life has had hard times like everyone else's but when it comes down to it I love my life! I have great friends and my mom is the best. I love my siblings and I like looking at the past and thinking about what I've overcome makes me feel strong~
Kaboom Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 Okay, I'm gonna post my life story for the heck of it too, you're not the only one who had/has it bad Alex. :( My parents were always loving and kind and they never made me eat anything they had known for sure I hated. Let's skip through the happy years from 1 second~14 years old. When I turned 14, my life went completely to HELL, ever since I was little, I always cared about my family like a mother would a child. So, back on to that. My little sister was near death for a few months, I was completely stressed out, doing bad in school, I was grouchy, and pissed all the time. Soon, my sister recovered and I was getting my mind straight again. A month or so later, my mom was taking me to a carnival so we could spend some time together. We were on a secondary road, and a drunk driver was running towards us. My mom told me to get in the back of the car, because if we had gone off the road we would've died, I told her to come back with me but she said she would try to steer clear..... Well, that didn't work out... the truck driver hit us straight on, broke my leg, and my arm, I was the lucky one, I survived. My mom was killed instantly in the crash, the drunk driver was passed out and came out with a few broken bones. Someone called an ambulance and they tried to take me to the hospital, but I wouldn't leave my mom's side. So finally they sedated me and got me in the truck, I soon returned home. After mom's funeral I wasn't eating right anymore, I couldn't walk by her room, I was curled up in my room over half the time, and I cried for weeks. Then... my dad married the devil, AKA Step-Mom. She would torture my siblings until I finally stood up for them, then she would torture me, like locking me out of the house for hours in the winter, and "accidently" burning me with whatever she had in her hand that was hot, she broke my nose, then she went too far.... She beat my little brother senseless for dropping a glass plate, HE WAS FUCKING 6 YEARS OLD! I stepped in and beat the hell outta her. Later that night, she killed my father. I don't want to go into details about it. But I can rest assured she will rot in jail for what she did. When we were orphans, my older sister (who was 20 at the time) stepped in and became "mom" later when she met a boy friend and they had a real bond, I could see we were holding her back from a good life. So my twin sister and I took responsibility of being "parents" at age 16. We live a pretty happy life now. Welfare, good jobs, I guess I can be thankful for that. Sorry guys, not much for life stories.
Terroryst Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 Okay, I'm gonna post my life story for the heck of it too, you're not the only one who had/has it bad Alex. :( My parents were always loving and kind and they never made me eat anything they had known for sure I hated. Let's skip through the happy years from 1 second~14 years old. When I turned 14, my life went completely to HELL, ever since I was little, I always cared about my family like a mother would a child. So, back on to that. My little sister was near death for a few months, I was completely stressed out, doing bad in school, I was grouchy, and pissed all the time. Soon, my sister recovered and I was getting my mind straight again. A month or so later, my mom was taking me to a carnival so we could spend some time together. We were on a secondary road, and a drunk driver was running towards us. My mom told me to get in the back of the car, because if we had gone off the road we would've died, I told her to come back with me but she said she would try to steer clear..... Well, that didn't work out... the truck driver hit us straight on, broke my leg, and my arm, I was the lucky one, I survived. My mom was killed instantly in the crash, the drunk driver was passed out and came out with a few broken bones. Someone called an ambulance and they tried to take me to the hospital, but I wouldn't leave my mom's side. So finally they sedated me and got me in the truck, I soon returned home. After mom's funeral I wasn't eating right anymore, I couldn't walk by her room, I was curled up in my room over half the time, and I cried for weeks. Then... my dad married the devil, AKA Step-Mom. She would torture my siblings until I finally stood up for them, then she would torture me, like locking me out of the house for hours in the winter, and "accidently" burning me with whatever she had in her hand that was hot, she broke my nose, then she went too far.... She beat my little brother senseless for dropping a glass plate, HE WAS FUCKING 6 YEARS OLD! I stepped in and beat the hell outta her. Later that night, she killed my father. I don't want to go into details about it. But I can rest assured she will rot in jail for what she did. When we were orphans, my older sister (who was 20 at the time) stepped in and became "mom" later when she met a boy friend and they had a real bond, I could see we were holding her back from a good life. So my twin sister and I took responsibility of being "parents" at age 16. We live a pretty happy life now. Welfare, good jobs, I guess I can be thankful for that. Sorry guys, not much for life stories. That's the fucking hard knock life.
Kittie Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 And and how am I suppose to tell her that her son is bisexual???Such thing will kill her for sure.... Bring a boyfriend home for Christmas and see what happens. And what's up with this joining the army thing? WHY?! LOL. Of all the places you could get some meat...
Terroryst Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 And what's up with this joining the army thing? WHY?! LOL. Of all the places you could get some meat... What?
Kaboom Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 @kitty AUHUEHUEHUEHUEHUEWAKEKEKEKEKEKEEKEKKEKEKJAJAJAJAJAAJAJAJJAJAJAJWAKEKEKEEKEAUHEHU HEUHEUHEUEHEHUEHEUHEUEHUEHEUEHUEHEUHEUHEEUHEU JAAJAJAJA AJAAJAAHEHEHEHEHEEHHE HAAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHLOLAODASDADLMAO
Reika Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 It happens, it does, my mom says lots o hurtful things when she's mad and frustrated, and somehow the anger gets directed to me. But either ways, you have to know ur mom's a human too, and she feels emotions as well, Granted that she doesn't have the right to accuse you and say things about you without really knowing about your side and such.. :) so you should try talking to her, sit down and tell you you appreciate her and all, but she can really go overboard at times, but seriously, just have a talk with her, and you'd be surprise how she would reply. :)
Icarus Posted May 23, 2009 Author Report Posted May 23, 2009 And what's up with this joining the army thing? WHY?! LOL. Of all the places you could get some meat... The fucking country makes me,I don't have a choice T___T
teacupx Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 LOL ARMY TO GET SOME MEAT wow you're a fucking bitch.
Millenia Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 LOL ARMY TO GET SOME MEAT wow you're a fucking bitch. . ily, read my mind My Mum pisses me off constantly, I know she's done her best to take care of me when I was alot younger but she made some mistakes that have affected me to this day. I can't forgive her no matter how hard I try, and whenever I ask her reasons as to why she did stuff her reply usually was 'I was depressed'. That isn't a good valid reason for me so me and Mum pretty much don't talk. Ontop of that she can't stop arguing with her b/f because everything pisses her off, once again hes slept elsewhere and she's telling us that we'll be moving out by next week. For fucks sake, I have a college entrance exam at the start of next month and she's due to give birth anytime. She's so fucking immature it makes me cringe.
teacupx Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 LOL ARMY TO GET SOME MEAT wow you're a fucking bitch. ily, read my mind My Mum pisses me off constantly, I know she's done her best to take care of me when I was alot younger but she made some mistakes that have affected me to this day. I can't forgive her no matter how hard I try, and whenever I ask her reasons as to why she did stuff her reply usually was 'I was depressed'. That isn't a good valid reason for me so me and Mum pretty much don't talk. Ontop of that she can't stop arguing with her b/f because everything pisses her off, once again hes slept elsewhere and she's telling us that we'll be moving out by next week. For fucks sake, I have a college entrance exam at the start of next month and she's due to give birth anytime. She's so fucking immature it makes me cringe. I love you <3 I'm sorry, don't let it get in the way of your studies please ;( Just ignore the drama and focus on YOU. You are not the adult here. Don't worry about things you shouldn't be worrying about >:0
Millenia Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 LOL I MADE MY POST MORE APPROP.. I love you <3 I'm sorry, don't let it get in the way of your studies please ;( Just ignore the drama and focus on YOU. I try i tryy. Its hard to focus when your mum won't stop shouting on the phone 24/7 and randomly smashing things just so he'll come crawling back. Lolol it's so dumb. If she does decide to make us leave and I have to do my entrance exam still, once I tell her I'm not going until I have done my college entrance exam she'll accuse me of ~defending him~ ~betraying her~ etc.
NeverGone Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 Mom's can be so bitchy and controlling. It's like woman shut up already, Your not helping it and you are getting worst.
Kittie Posted May 23, 2009 Report Posted May 23, 2009 LOL ARMY TO GET SOME MEAT wow you're a fucking bitch. Y'all need some gay friends to understand that joke. And I'm pretty sure I'm a self-proclaimed bitch? Besides, conscription for Icarus is mandatory in his country anywho, so it don't apply.
Icarus Posted May 23, 2009 Author Report Posted May 23, 2009 Y'all need some gay friends to understand that joke. And I'm pretty sure I'm a self-proclaimed bitch? Besides, conscription for Icarus is mandatory in his country anywho, so it don't apply. Lucky for you I got a great sense of humor heh @Polina - I did read everything what you wrote and I'm happy everything is turning alright for you now <3 @Tyler - I'm really sorry about all what happened to you my love *hugs* v_v